Week ???

Things are such a blur right now that I am not even sure what week I am in and I am too tired to save this and go back and look. I am thinking it is week 9 or something like that. Here's the down and dirty...I lost again this week. It was only .6lbs but I am a little bit less of a FAT MAMMA again this week. I think that puts my total loss at 17.4lbs. Not too shabby for two months.

Highlights
I didn't cry so much this week.
I did not eat junk food out of the teachers lounge with the exception of 4 candy corn! :)
I realized that I have an amazing support system of friends and family.

Lowlights
I cried.
I wanted to give up.
I drank a little too many adult beverages.
I ate a little too much "junk" food.

There you have it...hopefully I will get my life figured out and back on track. Thanks to everyone that has been there for me in the past couple of weeks. Your love and prayers have not gone unnoticed.

Week 8

It's been a week. That's all I can say. I will fill you in on what's going on at another time. Tonight's post is short and sweet. I lost .8lbs for a total of 16.8lbs lost in 8 weeks. With all that went down this week I am ok with a small amount lost. Please say a prayer for a better week.

Yes, Please

During tonight's workout I had a good laugh. I had my Pandora set to "workout radio". Usually this is a good mix of high tempo and motivating songs. I about choked when "Sugar Pie Honey Bunch" by the Four Tops came on. Here was the conversation that I had with myself:

Song: "Sugar Pie, Honey Bunch"
FAT MAMMA: "Pie? Yes, please. Honey Buns? Oh yeah."
Song: "You know that I love you"
FAT MAMMA: "Yes, I sure do love you."
Song: "I can't help myself"
FAT MAMMA:  "You are right, you can't help yourself...that's what got you into this mess of fatness."
Song: "I love you and nobody else"
FAT MAMMA: "Well I do love Hubs, the Girl, the Boy, and the rest of my family and friends. But damn food...I love you too!"
Yep, this was the dialogue that went on in my head during the song. Kept me motivated...and drooling for some sweets! Hope you got a laugh out of this like I did! Happy Hump Day! We are on the downward slide towards the weekend! THANK GOD!

PS...I ran for a whole 5 minutes tonight...TWICE! Yeah FAT MAMMA!

Oh Shit

Just realized that 5k is in less than a month. Too bad I will NOT be ready for it. I have fallen behind in training. Life and work keep getting in the way. I know...it's not an excuse but it kinda is. Here is an example of what a pretty typical day/night looks like for me...starting at 9:00 pm last night:
 9:00 pm- in bed and almost asleep

9:45 pm- boy is screaming- up to feed him - back in bed @ 10:20

1:15 am- boy is screaming- rock and get him settled down- back to bed @ 2:30

3:30 am- damn DOG has to poop....PISSED OFF FAT MAMMA 

5:45 am- alarm goes off and get out of bed

6:40 am- out the door with the Boy and Girl in tow (usually I just take the Boy but she insisted)

7:20 am- arrive @ work

4:15 pm- leave work to pick up the tykes

5:15 pm- arrive @ home

5:20 pm- play outside with the Girl

6:00 pm- Boy in bath while Hubs makes dinner for girl

6:45  pm- bottle and bed for boy

7:00 pm - shower for girl

7:30 pm- clean bottles and pack bags/lunches for tomorrow

8:00 pm-  Girl in bed & dinner for FAT MAMMA

8:20 pm- throw in and fold a load of laundry

8:45 pm- about to pass out from exhaustion so off to bed i go

Please don't tell me that I should get up 30 minutes earlier and exercise...you get your ass up all hours of the night and then tell me to get up and exercise. Sorry to bitch but I am tired. Tired but still want to be successful. I just can't find a balance. Please don't think the Hubs doesn't help because he helps more than just about any other men that I know. He is a wonderful husband, dad and support. Tonight he is at a meeting and is gone from 6:30-???. Not typical BUT even when he is home the schedule is pretty much the same but he entertains the girl while i do the other chores. Oh well...should quit bitchin' and get my ass moving. Too bad I can't eat, fold laundry, blog, catch up on work emails AND run on the treadmill all at the same time. If I could...I wouldn't be a cranky bitch right now.

Week 7

Week 7 is in the books. Actually it is weeks 6 & 7 since I couldn't weigh in on Labor Day. I have switched my weigh in day to Saturday mornings. Going in the evening after work is just too much. When I get home I like to get my housework done and then go to bed! I think Saturday mornings will work out well. I didn't get to stay for the meeting this morning but I am hoping that starting next weekend, I will be able to stay.

Highlights
I did not fall to temptation in the teacher's workroom or teacher's lounge! There are ALWAYS snacks (not ones that are good for you) in those places. There was some really yummy looking pumpkin cinnamon bread that I really wanted to try but I didn't! YAHOO
I took my lunch to work every day.
I really took the time to think about every thing that I put in my mouth and if I really needed to eat it.
I met my daily step goal 6 out of 7 days!
I did a new workout...8 minute abs. It HURT but I did all 8 minutes!

Lowlights
I "cheated" one night because I was so stressed out. I had two pieces of pizza and a few garlic knots...not really too bad but I felt guilty.
I skipped two meals because I was stressed out...not good because it makes me hungrier later and then I want to pig out.
I only got on the treadmill one time. That 5k in less than a month is going to hurt if I don't get my ass in gear.


I am sure there are more but I forget. I need to be better about writing these things down! Oh well. So here it goes. As of today I am 16lbs less of a FAT MAMMA! That means I am down 3 lbs this week. Only three more pounds until I hit 10%!!!!

I took some time to update my pictures. Below is a picture comparing me from 7 weeks ago until today! Not as much of a difference as I had hoped but oh well.

A teeny tiny victory

This whole work thing is still kicking my ass. I came home today one totally exhausted FAT MAMMA. I wanted nothing more than to crawl into bed at 5pm and sleep until tomorrow but I didn't. I threw the boy at hubs, quickly changed my clothes, and got on the treadmill. And I ran...for three whole minutes! No, you dorks...I spent more than 3 minutes exercising...28 to be exact but I RAN for 3 solid minutes at a 5.6 pace. That might not seem much to some of you but to this FAT MAMMA, this is a teeny tiny victory. You see...about a month ago I could barely run @ a 4.5 for one minute! The way I look at it, a lot of teeny tiny victories will add up to a big victory in the long run!

Damn Holiday

Normally I would say this around Thanksgiving or Christmas but not Labor Day. I am actually saying this because WW was closed today b/c of the holiday! This meant that FAT MAMMA couldn't weigh in! GRRR.

Do you trust me? Yes, I just asked if you trust me. If you don't trust me you can stop reading but keep reading if you trust me. Last week I weighed myself a minute before I left to get weighed and I weighed exactly the same on my home scale and the WW scale. So since I couldn't officially weigh in today, I decided to do it at home just to keep myself in check. The unofficial results are -0.0lbs. I weighed in at exactly the same as last week. 179.0lbs.

I am not in the mood to do highlights and lowlights tonight so I will just tell you that I could have done better and I could have done worse. I am OK with it. This week...I am going to kick ass!

This Week Was Really Hard

It is Sunday morning...36 hours until I weigh in. I am pretty sure that this week will be a "gain" week. I am ok with that because like I have said before, this is going to be a long journey and one "bad" week here and there isn't so bad. I think it is even more ok (does that make sense?) because I learned a few things this week.

This week was really hard for this FAT MAMMA. It was hard on several different levels. 1) I went back to work after being off for 5 months. 2) The boy decided that he didn't want to sleep anymore. 3) I realized how crazy hard it is to be a full time working mom of two kids with a house to keep up with. 4) I found out that I have to be "on my game" every minute of every day and if I don't, I feel like I have let myself down.

Like I said, I also learned a lot this week. 1) I am an emotional/stress eater. 2) I have to plan ahead in order to ensure that I eat the best that I can. 3) Lack of sleep really messes with a person. 4) There are lots of people that are out there to support me on this journey and they keep me going.

I plan to take all of these things that I learned this week and use them in the future to help myself keep truckin' on this journey. I really appreciate each of you that continue to push me and encourage me on this journey. Your comments, emails, phone calls and death stares as I try to sneak bad food, really do keep me going and this FAT MAMMA is going to do just that...keep going!