Welcome & My Story

Welcome to my journey! I created this blog mainly for myself. I know that this journey is not going to be easy but I want to be able to look back and appreciate all that I went through. For those of you that know me, you know that I try to find humor in all situations and I tend to use sarcasm A LOT! My intent for this blog is to allow myself to be brutally honest with how things are going...good or bad!

So here's my story. I am not one of those people that have struggled with weight since childhood. My "battle" with my weight did not start until I was out of high school. Over the past 10 years I have watched my weight slowly creep up to well past 150 lbs. In 2007 I got pregnant with my first child. My guess is that I weighed around 170 pounds at the time. I was terrified that while pregnant I would hit the 200lb mark. Luckily, I only gained 17 pounds while pregnant. I was thrilled at my 2 week checkup that I had already lost 24 lbs. YAHOO! Long story short, after having baby girl, I got very sick and ended up losing another 15 lbs. So at 8 weeks post baby I was around 130 pounds. This was by far the lightest I had been in many years. I was thrilled! BUT the thrill clearly made me eat more because once again I sat and watched my weight began to creep up. And I mean it....I SAT AND WATCHED my weight go up. I ate a lot and sat around a lot! I did manage to train and complete two century bike rides...riding 100 miles in one day. I learned that biking is not the best way to lose weight. I was in great physical shape but still HEAVY!

In 2011 I found myself pregnant again. At my first appointment I weighed in at around 178 pounds. Once again I was terrified that I would hit the 200lb mark. This pregnancy was a little different than the first, I had no morning sickness and I could NOT gain weight no matter how hard I tried. At each appointment my doctor would lecture me about needing to eat and gain weight. At 28 weeks I found out that I had gestational diabetes and this was the reason that I was not gaining any weight. I immediately met with an endocrinologist and was put on a strict "diet" to control my diabetes. After two weeks my blood sugar was still not under control so I was put on insulin shots. As the weeks went on I had increase my insulin and still was unable to control the diabetes...even with 4 shots of insulin a day!

On the day of baby boy's birth (EASTER Sunday 2012) I weighed in at 187 lbs.  (Yes, I only gained 9 lbs!)YAHOO!!! I did not hit the 200 lb mark. Now that I look back, I am ashamed that I was proud that I didn't hit 200 lbs. I should NEVER have been close but I was/am. Again, at my two week post-baby appt I was down over 20 lbs. I was so excited to be "small" again.

I will leave out the details of the time period from May 2012-July 2012 and just tell you that traveled a lot and ate even more! On Monday, July 23rd I went to the doctor and weighed in at 192...I was so ashamed, mad, embarrassed, pissed, and...well you get the picture. It was this day that I realized I was a FAT MAMMA and something had to change.