I can't believe i'm doing this...

Have you ever taken your picture in the mirror? Even better, have you ever taken your picture in the mirror without a shirt on? Have you ever posted said pictures on a public blog?

 The thought of this hadn't even crossed my mind until yesterday and I honestly thought I was going to vomit when I got a good look at the pictures after they downloaded to my computer. Can you say GROSS???  I have to say that I am one very motivated FAT MAMMA after seeing these pictures! I am excited to see how much "less vomit worthy" my pictures get as I lose weight. Drum roll  please...

**Disclaimer- I am not responsible for any blindness, loss of appetite or mental scarring that these pictures may have on my readers. Look at your own risk.**

See I told you so!

Week 1

Week 1 is in the bag...AND I FEEL GOOD! Well, as good as I can feel considering that I am still a FAT MAMMA.

Highlights of Week 1
I realized just how poorly I was eating.
I never felt terribly hungry.
I still got to eat Chick-Fil-A (twice I might add).
I realized that this journey is going to be long but I am up for the challenge.
I found out that fruits and vegetables are a satisfying snack.
Hubby and I celebrated our 6 year wedding anniversary and I enjoyed our night out!

Lowlights of Week 1
I threw away A LOT of money when I rid the fridge, freezer and pantry of crap.
After enjoying a night on the town Saturday, I wanted to pig out on Sunday (but I didn't).

Now...the moment you have all been waiting for....this weeks weight was 185.4! That's right a 6.6lb loss! I am super happy but also guarded because I know that "beginners luck" is what happened. You always lose quickly in the beginning. Our leader at tonight's meeting reminded me of this but I quickly replied that I am fine as long as I lose...10 lbs or 0.1lb.  When you are in it for the long haul, a loss is a loss!

I have lots of other things to share with you but I will save those for the upcoming days! Keep coming back for updates, stories, and hopefully some humor!

A New Beginning

On Monday, July 23, 2012, I decided that I didn't want to be a FAT MAMMA anymore.  My husband came home at 5:40 that evening and I walked out the door at 5:45 determined to change my future. I knew tthat if I didn't change my habits that I wouldn't be able to be the best mother to my two young children. In 2004 I successfully lost 30 lbs before my brother's wedding by joining Weight Watchers. I decided that I would once again, give WW a try.

Like I said, I left the house at 5:45 for a 6:30 meeting. I left the house and did what I do best...made a beeline for the Chick-Fil-A drive-thru. What can I say? I AM A FAT MAMMA! I successfully chowed down a spicy chicken sandwich and waffle fries in about 5 minutes. Then I did what I knew I had to do, walk through the doors to WW. I filled out paperwork and stepped on the scale...192lbs. Congratulations, Kelly, YOU ARE OFICIALLY A FAT MAMMA!!!! Strangely enough, I felt relieved and calm. It helped that my sister-in-law and FRIEND Jenny joined me at WW. It is always nice to have someone to travel with on a long and tough journey! THANK YOU JENNY!!!

So there you have it, the start of a journey. A journey to a healthy, happy and hopefully skinnier FAT MAMMA!

Welcome & My Story

Welcome to my journey! I created this blog mainly for myself. I know that this journey is not going to be easy but I want to be able to look back and appreciate all that I went through. For those of you that know me, you know that I try to find humor in all situations and I tend to use sarcasm A LOT! My intent for this blog is to allow myself to be brutally honest with how things are going...good or bad!

So here's my story. I am not one of those people that have struggled with weight since childhood. My "battle" with my weight did not start until I was out of high school. Over the past 10 years I have watched my weight slowly creep up to well past 150 lbs. In 2007 I got pregnant with my first child. My guess is that I weighed around 170 pounds at the time. I was terrified that while pregnant I would hit the 200lb mark. Luckily, I only gained 17 pounds while pregnant. I was thrilled at my 2 week checkup that I had already lost 24 lbs. YAHOO! Long story short, after having baby girl, I got very sick and ended up losing another 15 lbs. So at 8 weeks post baby I was around 130 pounds. This was by far the lightest I had been in many years. I was thrilled! BUT the thrill clearly made me eat more because once again I sat and watched my weight began to creep up. And I mean it....I SAT AND WATCHED my weight go up. I ate a lot and sat around a lot! I did manage to train and complete two century bike rides...riding 100 miles in one day. I learned that biking is not the best way to lose weight. I was in great physical shape but still HEAVY!

In 2011 I found myself pregnant again. At my first appointment I weighed in at around 178 pounds. Once again I was terrified that I would hit the 200lb mark. This pregnancy was a little different than the first, I had no morning sickness and I could NOT gain weight no matter how hard I tried. At each appointment my doctor would lecture me about needing to eat and gain weight. At 28 weeks I found out that I had gestational diabetes and this was the reason that I was not gaining any weight. I immediately met with an endocrinologist and was put on a strict "diet" to control my diabetes. After two weeks my blood sugar was still not under control so I was put on insulin shots. As the weeks went on I had increase my insulin and still was unable to control the diabetes...even with 4 shots of insulin a day!

On the day of baby boy's birth (EASTER Sunday 2012) I weighed in at 187 lbs.  (Yes, I only gained 9 lbs!)YAHOO!!! I did not hit the 200 lb mark. Now that I look back, I am ashamed that I was proud that I didn't hit 200 lbs. I should NEVER have been close but I was/am. Again, at my two week post-baby appt I was down over 20 lbs. I was so excited to be "small" again.

I will leave out the details of the time period from May 2012-July 2012 and just tell you that traveled a lot and ate even more! On Monday, July 23rd I went to the doctor and weighed in at 192...I was so ashamed, mad, embarrassed, pissed, and...well you get the picture. It was this day that I realized I was a FAT MAMMA and something had to change.